Thursday, July 23, 2009

if i only had some kind of truth,,

rather than the continuous paranoia type of messages. everything is just a lie to or about me and im not really comfortable or confident enough to believe anything. contacting the US Attorney General Eric Holder popped into my mind today but I don't even know what I would say. i got a message from a screen name that began with the word 'parole' followed by some other characters but that's just more paranoia that i can only whole heartedly reject these days since my doctor yelled at me telling me how paranoid i was when i was in the hospital for a 2-week miserable stay a few weeks ago.

hey i read up on 'the secret' a little bit and the 'law of attraction' and i jotted down the basic strategy, i.e., the three step method. the premise is that when someone desires something, it is attracted to them. I just jotted notes of these three steps just in case it doesn't come across clear.

1) Ask
- visualize and emotionalize your desires
- envision the goal as if already received
- focus exclusively on the positive
- release full emotions for the goal
2) Believe
- be open to the outside world around me
3) Receive
- attune self to the universe
- possess unreserved, unwavering cheerfulness
- have intense faith
- express gratitude for what one already has and will get

No wonder I couldn't do anything with all that hate that was given to me. they broke my will like they were supposed to do, huh? They being the CIA or whomever.

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